Yesterday I took the test. The home pregnancy test. My cycles have varied the past 6 months between 30, 35, 35, 40, 30 and 32 days so I figured when I didn’t get my period on the 35th day I might as well see what was going on.
I hesitated taking the test. Part of me was thinking that I was just setting myself up for disappointment but the other half was thinking that if it was a negative then I can move on and plan for January.
So I woke up, grabbed a htp out of our linen closet and waited, after about 1 minute two lines showed up. After the 3 minute mark it was obvious that the two lines meant it was positive! I was pregnant.
I did not react the way I thought I would. I looked at myself in the mirror quickly before I went up to wake up James and show him the test. His reaction wasn’t what I expected either. In his defense he was half asleep but I think we were both kind of numb about it. Kind of like, is this really happening?
Yesterday morning I woke up with excruciating gas pains. Like I had a huge air balloon in my stomach and I just needed someone to stick a pin in me. Not sure if that is a pregnancy symptom or not. I did have Thai food the night before that just might have made me gassy.
So of course my first thought was of all the drinking I did in December during the holidays. Between multiple Christmas parties, get togethers with friends, trip back home to celebrate Christmas AND NYE , I did more drinking than I could remember. I feel guilty about it. I have read multiple times that drinking so early in your pregnancy is ok and doesn’t effect the embryo, but you never know.
Anyhow, last night I downloaded from Kindle the What to Expect When you are Expecting book, as well as the Eating Well in that same series. I also harbor some guilt because last week I went crazy with take out sushi. I know, I know, I am over thinking all of this stuff for only being what like 3-4 weeks during that time, but you just never know.
Next week I am making an appointment to see me Ob-gyn. They say that a lot of doctors don’t see women until they are at least 8 weeks so I figured I would wait that long too. I would love to be able to go into the office and hear our first heart beat.
I am waiting to tell my Mom until after the doctors visit. It will be a great surprise for her but just in case I would like to keep it between James and I until then.
I did tell a girl here at work who is also trying to have a baby. We are on the same cycle so when she sent me a message saying that she had no luck in December I decided to spill our beans.
What a way to start 2011!
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